Things are...they're just changing so fast. I still feel like a little stupid ignorant kid. On one hand, I want to be independent and get a job and drive around. Sometimes I get weird bursts of motivation for like 10 minutes where I keep telling myself...this time, things are going to change. This week I'm going to blah blah blah. And then...then nothing. It's like all my motivation disappears and I don't give a fuck anymore. I used to be so motivated in middle school. What the hell happened? I had a fucking 4.0 GPA, I went to class when I had a fever, I LOVED school. No joke. Now it's like...nothing. I don't understand how I could have went from being a straight A student to having a 2.6 GPA. All my friends are changing and doing somehting or going somewhere and I'm still here. Eh fuck I dunno what the fuck I'm talking outta my ass again.