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I spent Christmas Eve at Van's but I woke up feeling like shit. My throat hurt so fucking bad I decided I should just go home and spend Christmas in bed. I hate today.
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I'm fucking sick.

Last Friday dickmouth and I went shopping for presents ohboy! Then I got to sleep ova her house and we had sex.



Check ya later bitch
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fuck

I dunno why but...man, this whole year, starting from the very beginning of 2007, I've been severely lacking in motivation. Not only do I not ever feel like doing anything anymore...I feel like there is no point, and no purpose. I feel like everything is useless and going to school is getting harder and harder because when I wake up in the morning I feel like I have nothing to look forward to. Sometimes I feel like laying in bed all day, but when I DO lay in bed, I feel even worse because I feel like I'm wasting my life away. I don't know WHAT I want to do with my life. It's so boring and nothing is new or exciting and even when I'm with my friends I still feel this weight is at the back of my mind and I don't know what it is, but it makes me feel shitty and sometimes even scared. I feel even worse knowing I'm taking a lot for granted. I don't mean to, not at all. I'm lucky, because I've got family and friends and a home and everything. I'm just so afraid of losing it all. I don't want to end up all alone with nowhere to go. I don't have any useful hobbies. How am I going to do anything with my future? I don't need to know any of that stuff to have a career. I just don't want to end up doing some shitty job. I probably won't even last because I'll have that whole "nothing to look forward to" feeling again and I won't show up at work and I'll get fired.

Yesterday Penis came over and we went to the library. I sat in a really comfortable chair and tried to snooze a little. It felt really nice. Then we learned how to do the soulja boy and drew in Vova's porno magazine.
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mcstupid with a side of idiot

Today was fun. Lil Pisk came ova and we went to Barnes and Nobles. Then I drank hot cocoa and went fucking insane. I was high off of...suggga. I was laughing like a maniac at everything and I couldn't calm down. Then we played HP Chamber of Dicks on PS2 and made Hairy Pothead fly and crash into things...fun man, man.
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fist

Things are...they're just changing so fast. I still feel like a little stupid ignorant kid. On one hand, I want to be independent and get a job and drive around. Sometimes I get weird bursts of motivation for like 10 minutes where I keep telling myself...this time, things are going to change. This week I'm going to blah blah blah. And then...then nothing. It's like all my motivation disappears and I don't give a fuck anymore. I used to be so motivated in middle school. What the hell happened? I had a fucking 4.0 GPA, I went to class when I had a fever, I LOVED school. No joke. Now it's like...nothing. I don't understand how I could have went from being a straight A student to having a 2.6 GPA. All my friends are changing and doing somehting or going somewhere and I'm still here. Eh fuck I dunno what the fuck I'm talking outta my ass again.